1st Commandment: Thou shalt have no other gods before me -written 29/11/2023

 I am person who is very accommodating of people's needs, but as of late, I have seem that a lot of relationships that existed in my life where because of people thinking that they should replace God and be enthroned in my life. The hell!

I am in a relationship with a man that thinks I should worship the very ground that He walks on while He treats me like a servant. He is good, but there are components that I feel violated. I have been seeing this man for over a year now, and I have seen him less than 10 times in that one year. And no, he doesn't stay far, He literally just 150km from me. But no, He doesn't come. oh I am also not allowed to come to his place because he lives with a woman. I am here looking like a fool and I cant simply walk away because he is my daughter's father and also because I foolishly and stupidly love him like the foolish idiotic nincompoop that I am. 

The other issue that I have with this man is that He wants me to worship him rather submit to him. I fail to understand why should I exalt a mere human being while I have God almighty. The Bible says otherwise. There are days where I feel like leaving him but I know deep down in my heart I don't want to and I am not yet ready to. I just pray to God to help me endure this and when the time is right in God's timing I will be free from him. ....